Today I've been contemplating two pretty cool things:
1. iPods make it so that you can have a soundtrack to your life. I was walking around today with my iPod in and I felt like I was in a movie. Has anyone else had that experience, or is it just me? I could imagine what different camera angles would be used with different parts of the song. I know that may sound lame...but there was something about it that was kind of cool.
2. What is it about human nature that is never satisfied? Example: I was on campus today--I went up to meet Doug for lunch (that's why I was walking around with an iPod)--and I realized how wonderful my undergrad experience was. I miss lectures so badly...I don't miss the homework...but I would give anything to go back to lectures. I started thinking about all the different places that I lived and all the different people that I lived with. I loved so much about the whole experience...but I also remember how much time I spent complaining about what a dump certain appartments were, or how obnoxious/rude/inconsiderate/(insert rude adjective here) certain roommates were...and it's only now that I see what a waste of time and energy that is, because now it seems like I was just being rediculous!--like nothing was ever as bad as I thought. I can look back and see so many great things about different times of my life.
How did I get it so wrong? Why was I so ready to complain about things that weren't really there? And it makes me worry/wonder what else am I go to miss while I'm complaining about something else that isn't real? Which then begs the question, how do I change? How do I keep myself from making the same mistake through the next part of my life?--a part that will most likely involve children; a part that I deffinitely don't want to miss. To just say that I wont complain about anything at all is dumb, because it creates a potential for ignoring problems which is one of the worst things anyone can do...so I guess that means that this is going to involve some kind balance between acknowledment of problems, and a kind of discipline to actively seek out the postive that must exist--even when I'm blinded by the negative. But then how do I know where the line is? What equals balance? I believe that the deffiniton of balance is different for everyone--I can't believe that there is any kind of formula from which I can figure out what will create balance. So then how do I find my balance?
This is just another one of those questions that I don't really expect an answer to...I just had to articulate it...and throw it out there.
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