What is "enough"? Where does "enough"come from? How you get to "enough"? I'm not talking about "Will I every have enough money?", instead I'm talking about "I've had enough and it's time for things to change." There are things about me and habits I have that I want to change...and most people seem to be able to make big changes in their lives because they get to that point of "enough is enough--I'm done with this". And even though I keep trying to change, and I feel like I get to that point, maybe I don't--because in about 3 weeks I'm back to my old habits. This makes me wonder if there is some secret about "enough" that I don't know...or is it just me?--am I just that messed up?--can I change?--am I just that different from everyone else? I never thought I was before , but now I'm starting to wonder...
No, even if I am messed up I have to be able to change. The possibility of change, and the ability to chose to change is one of main ideals around which so much of what I believe is built. I've seen change happen and choices made over and over again--I know they're real, and I know they are possible. So then why do I still feel like I'm missing something?
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About Me
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- I graduated from BYU in Psychology, and I plan on going back to school getting my masters. Eventually I want a PhD...but that is quite a way away. I'm married and and crazy in love with the very best and most amazing man I have EVER met.
1 comment:
Yay!!!
You're addicted to blogging. I have to say, your blog is super cute. I was waiting for you to do something like this.
Your music sucks, though. I thought I'd point that out. Everything else fits the URL extremely well.
And I love the new name of your blog! It's basically adorable, especially with it over the pic of you and doug.
And to answer your question, read my post about anger. People won't admit it, but it's true. If you can't/won't change, essentially you are saying you are more uncomfortable with the unfamiliar than with your current "bad habits".
If you find yourself not changing, you can chalk it up to one of two things: you really aren't that disgusted with your current self (at least not enough to put forth the effort to change) or that you don't believe change is possible.
Lamely, a good analogy is activation energy in chemical reactions. I won't say anymore.
I hope you truly are addicted to blogging. I'm going to be checking everyday now.
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